Procrastination.. It's a Hell of a Drug

Ok... So basically at 4:40 am I am taking the time to write on here... about how procrastination is taking a toll on my life.  The procrastination is not occurring with everything in my life... exactly not with the things i enjoy.  But it is affecting important things.  And it's just getting so far that I am coming up with bizarre bizarre! excuses as to why I could not do this or that! I'm not sure if it's got to do with getting my priorities straight.  Or is it happening because i'm already focused on how much I hate the task that I don't even begin it due to procrastination.  Whatever the answer may be.. if there is an answer... i hope that a change comes soon... does this occur while your growing up... or if I don't change it soon will it just continue to affect different aspects of my life..

WELL i hope to change this soon, because as of now, I am messing up big time! and it's completely affecting my mood, sleep, LIFE!!!..

Back to work...

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Ozzy

I just wanted to give you an update on my puppy Ozzy.  In two days he will be 18 weeks.  As of now the most difficult thing with Ozzy is potty training.  I didn't think it'd be this difficult.  We are going to put him in training classes because they said that the obedience he will learn in the classes will help with the potty training.  Besides that everything is great.  Now I understand when people say a dog can be your best friend.  The relationship with a dog is one of the most positive relationships you can have.  They are always happy to see you, and no matter what time of day they are always there for you.   Ozzy is always excited wagging his tail when I talk to him.   And when i may be upset he always comes near me and tugs on my clothe.  This whole experience is amazing.  If you could ever have the chance to adopt a dog I say go for it.  The positive and happy energy they provide is necessary for any individual.

Remembering

So today I received a tweet on my twitter account from a friend who found a article about me in this magazine.  Yes I did know there was a article written about me, but no I did not know it was out already!  With that said I providing the link down below.  This article has reminded me that I have so much potential! That I have made an impact in peoples lives. And that I should continue too!  I can't wait to get out this trance i'm in and to continue what I've been doing.  I used to volunteer a lot and lately I have not.  I should get back into it.  Especially since I believe the more you give back the more you will receive back some way or another.  Well I have some motivation on my hands today therefore I'm not going to let it escape.  With that said here is the link to my article.

http://www.ct.edu/files/pdfs/Universe-Fall-2010.pdf

Ummm.....

Ummm so just to keep things simple... I have no idea why i love to put things off..  PROCRASTINATION! I swear I am a master at this.  So Wednesday I missed class, I had a quiz, now tomorrow it's Monday and I am allowed to take the quiz.  Did I prepare during the 5 extra days I had.. Let me just say I didn't even look for my notebook.  Now I am going to take a quiz that I am definitely not prepared for.  I do not want my professor to look at me and immediately make her mind up about what student I am... Well why wouldn't she, this is the message I'm giving her.  So instead of typing on here why am I not studying?  Oh yea because I am the worst!!!! Well okay thats off my chest! I really need to change this! Im not sure if it's  because I am at this school and it's just not where my heart wants to be??? Not sure... but I need to definitely change things around!!! IMMEDIATELY!!   Well okay later!!!

Let's Get to Cookn'

It's Grind Time Baby!!! Time to work my ass off! The outcome will be lovely!! No day time naps! No fooling around! I can sleep when i'm dead.  As of right now I have goals to accomplish, I have things on my agenda and I am going to successfully complete them!!! NOW.... well yes one day at a time. But now in time!!!  

Sometimes we wake up and find ourselves doing the same repetitive things! Well I am over it!!! I am tired of feeling weak and not motivated.  It's hard to get out of this but I am going to and I hope that you may as well if you find yourself wanting to do new and different things with your life.  Find your passion and feel it and go towards doing what that may be!   

Good Luck to me... Good Luck to you!! 

Where am I?!

Wow so after being so fascinated about beginning a blog, I totally forgot about it.  Well not necessarily, I knew I hadn't written in it, I just didn't take the time to.  Where have I been? I should have an amazing excuse, but I don't.  I have been doing absolutely nothing, well that's what i look at it as.  I was on a roll when I began this blog, with life! But I bought a 12 week old puppy (now) Havanese Poodle, and I got way to comfortable with him that I forgot about my life and about how I shouldn't be comfortable.  I am looking for energy to motivate myself and keep moving forward.  I have so much potential to do so much more, and my puppy isn't going to stop me.  I mean I hope he doesn't want me to stop either.  It's just been hard he's a puppy basically a baby who i've devoted my life to 24/7 for the past umm 2 weeks.  I should have taken this some extra thought.  I don't regret him, because I absolutely adore him! i Just can't wait for everything to settle down when he becomes trained and used to everything.  He sleeps a ton because he is a puppy but hey I should be doing work, NOT SLEEPING WITH HIM! LOL. So as of right now! I had set  a deadline to apply for grad schools for September 5th and as you can see I am way OVERDUE! with my deadline! I have set a deadline of Wednesday to at least submit 2 of my applications that have a October 5th deadline! If its going to take energy drinks that that's what it'll take! But this isn't me right now. The positive on the go spirit!  I need to snap out of this quick!!!!

So today I began reading ... 'Become a better you' by Joel Osteen... and it reminded me why I should stop this laziness and keep working towards the dreams and goals that God has put forth in my heart.  It also reminded me to stop listening to the negative comment and advice of others.  I hate when people ask me what I'm currently doing with my life, than have something to say about it... like 'why are you doing that' 'oh isn't that going to make things more difficult'  'but you are good at home paying no rent' blah blah blah! i just want to say MIND YOUR BUSINESS!!! why ask someone something, than judge them and throw your fears towards them... NO THANKS.  I have to learn to keep more things to myself, and i have to stop acting like i need to hear what people think about my ideas... its my life i should think and decide whats right... anyways the amazing ideas i have about my life God put forth in me to put into action! therefore i will!!!

I have a few stresses occurring in my life right now! But as of right now... this second... they wont stress me out any longer, how come... well because the more i stress them the more they will become larger issues and stress me more... tonight is still young... and tomorrow is a new day!!!! I can't wait to begin relieving these stresses I have as of right now!!!! Amen to that!!!

Have a good night folks!! =)

The Power is in My Hands

Basically today was a fun filled day for me.  I bought about 6 books, and I don't know what it's about books, but they bring so much excitement to me.  I believe you can learn from either talking to intellectual people or from reading! And since i'm not surrounded by those people every day I choose to read.  The most important book i bought today was 'The Power' the sequel to 'The Secret' by Rhonda Byrne.  Basically just like when I read the secret, the entire book inspired me, therefore as i'm going along reading the power, which we will abbreviate as TP, i'm going to point out things that really have an affect on my thinking... As I read I have a lavender wax candle lit, I read that lavender is a great scent to relax to.  Well here goes.

• 'You are creating your life with your thoughts and your feelings'.  "If you think and feel 'i've got a difficult and stressful day today' than you will attract back to you all people, circumstances, and events that will make your day difficult and stressful." and obviously if you think the opposite which is positivity than you will attract great good things in your day.  This is something that might be hard to do at first because even when things do get shitty you have to remember that the way you think about the situation will determine the outcome of the day.  Everything is in your hands.

• 'Most people think and talk about what they DON'T love more than they think and talk about what they love.  They give out more negativity than love.'  By doing this we are pushing away the good things in life, why because we focus on the negative bad things that, that is what we attract. 

•  This next one is one I need to work on.. "There are many little things that happen each day; if you get caught up in talking about what you don't love, every one of those little things brings more struggle and difficultly to your life."  This is a biggie.. why because it could be little things such as running late for class, or upset that it's raining and if we focus on these things and get so upset about them, which we do! than it will add stress to the situation at hand.  Remember 'Don't sweat the small stuff.'

I will continue more with more inspiring quotes when I continue reading...  With that said, to be continued... lol